I APOLOGIZE

        I sought for forgiveness because i realized i had erred, an irrational decision which had cost me a lot as it is. I wanted to be happy  but what i feel right now is anything but happiness. I had been selfish and not considered how all these would make him feel. I was in search of my own happiness forgetting to realize that one of us cannot be happy without the other, if he was hurting, i would receive my own share of the pain.
       Now i feel a tightening in my chest, so strong i am afraid i will be engulfed by it. My mind is incapable of understanding my predicament and my heart is so heavy it's beginning to weigh me down. I am confused and devoid of the right words to plead my case. I am unable to tell how much more weight my heart can handle.
      Being so close to him and yet so far is destroying me. All i want to say is I AM SORRY
                          Written by Onyinye Mbata 

THE CALL

       As i inhaled the air, savouring this wonderful moment, basking in the joy of being in a hospital. I knew this was it, this was where i wanted to be, this, my future, my life, my calling to be a doctor. The thought of being here was so pleasing. 

The nurse who was mum's friend gave me a tour of the hospital, i felt feted and it was indeed an indelible experience. From that very instant, all my effort and time were aimed at becoming a doctor, choosing the right courses and having the required grades. It was a long process of preparation of both body and soul, unending like the mother of never- ending horizons.
       Getting into the university to study Medicine was a dream come true, overwhelmed with fulfillment, nothing prepared me for the next seven years of my life. Seven years felt like seven decades, it was the most difficult period of my life, far from home and loved ones. There were days i thought of giving up and just doing something easier but the hunger to save lives, to help others, to put a smile on the faces of my patients and their families kept me going.
      Today a journey of seven years has come to an end, there's more work to be  done but the hardest has been accomplished. Standing amongst the denizens of the medical field, i couldn't have had it another way.

   To be continued......
                             
                                Written by Onyinye Mbata